Trust v. lust

I thought this picture of a lily that I took a few days ago was fitting, its all wrapped up trying to hide from the rest of the world just like me. its really sad. Hiding its wonderful colors from the rest of the world, I set in B&W just for the irony.

The other night my neighbor threw a very successful party...

I did not attend.

*sigh*

As I have already explained I can not join in such festivities as those that took place next door the other night, should I wish to remain in my parents good graces.

It was the most terrible feeling in the world sitting out all day on the porch, hoping for something unexpected to happen out of the blue. Meanwhile I read my English book (*gasp* God forbid I actually finish a reading assignment on time this year!) Brave New World. Troubling. That is the word I would use to describe writings such as Aldous Huxley's. The "brave" soulless clones of a futuristic London went about there preordained work and encountered the fascinating discovery of a savage born of a civilized woman (the embarrassment!), all the while my mind wandered and battled to concentrate on those depressing words of genius concerning the future of mankind.

The title of this post goes out to that night when my parents decided we should have movie night. We watched Bedtime Stories. Very cute. Very family oriented. Anyways afterword John and I ran next door, it killed me, it really did to see all my friends having a ball and not being allowed to go inside. John and I stayed out on the porch for all of three minutes while we asked our neighbor how it was going. Distracted. That would be the one word analysis for that interaction. Sad and disappointing if you want to go a little deeper.

I don't particularly like thinking about why I even went over there in the first place when I knew I would only leave even more disappointed than before. But I know why.

This was all Saturday. Sunday was a blur. I can not remember a thing. No crew for one thing (!) we didn't go to church either? Odd. I finished Brave New World. A friend of mine really wanted to hang out, she is a bad influence so I didn't go off with her. Monday was one long chore. Memorial Day. I sorted shoes. Very ironic to have to sort worn out shoes covered in mud on a day we are supposed to set aside for remembrance of those who trecked far and wide to protect freedom. It wasn't that bad, really. It felt like a waste of an afternoon, but it made my mother happy and it seems as if that is the only reassurance other than grades that I have to validate any work I find myself doing.

Michigan Primary

So Fox just called it, Romney is going to win, McCain second, and Huckabee third. *sigh*. Super Tuesday is going to be one heck of a party. Huckabee's talking now, hurray!

There are to many surprises, and non-surprises. Wow thats nice they just cut off McCain to go to Romney--I guess he has nothing to lose by taking advantage of what winning will get him. wait... OH WHAT! NO! His hair is out of place (time stopping) He looks tired too. Oh what class, they are booing Hillary and Obama. His sleeves are rolled up? He looks so giddy! He looks like he's going to jump up and down, is he sweating?? He looks like he won, animated and happy about the out come. Would he stop going on about Washington being broken? He's totally attacking McCain, the Washington insider, but everyone is saying he's distancing himself from Bush--which he is, but still He is passively hitting McCain! 24% is in, it's over. We are back to the decision desk awaiting Fox's analyze. Romney has won because of his economics positions and promises to the state of Michigan (duh). This is so fun sitting at home watching history pass by when you know you had a chance to be apart of it.

Peace between Hillary and Obama, wow

So finally the Democrats are putting their differences aside and making up with each other saying it's all good, we're on the same team why fight, yada yada yada. Psh. I love this, I can see them all sitting around a fire holding hands singing kumbayya all smiling for the press. "And in that spirit, let's come together, because I want more than anything else to ensure that our family stays together on the front lines of the struggle to expand rights for all Americans," Hillary said. Yes Obama issued a statement and she naturally can't let herself be seen as the bad guy and comes out with her statement an hour later saying they all seek common ground. Watching the talking heads yesterday was like listening to a broken record, Hillary is a woman (*gasp!*) with feelings (*gasp!*) who wants to be viewed as a man in the sense of her capabilities to run the nation (what?). Obama is a man running for President who is up against a former President and Senator machine that is tag-teaming him; meanwhile they are the ones crying "oh have pity on me". Politics. funny, really in a sad sort of way. How did race even become an issue again anyway??? I think I missed that? And gender? Didn't we have a civil war back in the 1800's, I wonder if Susan B. Anthony is cheering Hillary on or hanging her head in shame. And why have the feminists claimed Anthony as their patron saint? Well I know the answer to that one, but still, Anthony was a woman after women's rights not the degradation of male progress. What about human progress? Now we hear California's taking control over your thermostat, and we're going to have to switch over to those funny looking light bulbs in a couple of years completely. Innovation at it's best, Big Brother watching every degree you lower or raise on your thermostat, minor as it is those few degrees to fit your needs or desire for comfort a destroying the ozone layer and making global warming worse and are wasting energy. It's like watching some Discovery Channel-conspiracy-horror-movie, where at the end you see a little mushroom cloud go up over the US viewed from space--caused by that family with six kids who own an SUV and the newborn who's parents turned up the thermostat because they didn't want her to catch a cold during the night.

once upon a time...

fill in the blank, i have something like twenty different nursury rhymes come to mind including: Peter Pan (i love him, and of of course Tinkerbell), Mother Goose, Hansel and Gretal, Sleeping beauty, Cinderella, and for some reason Mary Popins. all these common childrens stories have the same basic plot and theme,good-triumphs-over-evil and damsel-in-distress-gets-rescued-by-the-hero kind of thing. fairy-tales, fables, bed time stories, Disney for crying out loud,, i miss them so much, it's depressing to see Walt-Disney Pictures coming out with movies that were unthought of back in Disney's time, like Cinderella 3: a twist in time--or something like that, come on what ever happened to Bambi? stories about little kids having fun and being kids, now it's trying to reveal what the real story behind Little Red-Riding Hood is or Spy-Kids out to save the world from a video game (wow, it felt corny just typing that). what has our society come to?